"Covert Affairs" Season 1 Finale

 For those of you who haven't seen the season finale or don't watch Covert Affairs but plan to, SPOILER ALERT.

Oh.

My.

Dear.

Lord.

All right, before I spazz, Auggie was especially sweet these two episodes.  Love him.  But on to...

...BEN CAN'T DIE.  Okay, when it showed Ben as a double agent, I teared up.   When Annie was in between him and Jay, I was muttering random things.  I can't believe he used that line:  "The truth is complicated."  That's the same line from the note!!  When the shooting and fighting began, I was yelling and screaming (so high that no sound really came out) into the pillow I'd smartly grabbed prior to nine o'clock.  And I was sobbing; I really started crying when Ben got attacked, and when he was so close to being killed, and then the shot-- 

I can't think about it.  I'll do the Scarlett thing:  "I'll think about it tomorrow."  ...Yeah, that's not going to happen.  I'll be thinking about it all night.  I'm still in shock over a number of things.  My lord...

That 9-10pm episode wasn't exceptionally emotional; but the finale...holy crow.  I was sobbing.  I'm still crying a little.  And when I found out that the series Season 2 started up next summer... I just about broke something.  Literally.  I threw pillows and stomped around my basement.  It was like someone close to me had just gotten shot and I wouldn't know what would happen for several months.  The promo that revealed the Season 2 start-up didn't help:  "She joined the CIA...because of him.  They recruited her...because of him.  Now can she prepare for a life--" Annie:  "Ben!" *dramatic pause*  "--without him?"  Or something along those lines...no pun intended.

I was pacing and having a tantrum for about...well, fifteen minutes.  I still can't believe it.  And it's grossly unfair, you know, because "White Collar" ended only last week and starts up again in January; "Royal Pains" starts again in January; "Burn Notice" and "Psych" start up again in November; but "Covert Affairs?"  NEXT.  SUMMER.

To the website:  reruns for the *somewhat painful* win.

~Cara